why do i always feel i have so much to prove..???



now in the library...mid terms are just over.. i realise it was the same for this sem and last...

after the demoralising mid terms...i always gave up....studying much...

this cant do..

i need to buck up...

i dun wan to be look down upon...

tho ppl will say upfront they wun... i know they do..in fact...

we are all judge by our paper qualificatinos...nevertheless...

i wish... it could be just me...and baby... and those i love....

no endless cruel competition... no selfishness....

must i realli fight to get my honours..?

if i didn't...would i regret? would i be unable to hold my head high in front of people anymore? would i have to admit to people i m lazy? i m stupid?

university is so cruel.....not just because of the studies...

i miss my jc days...sometimes even my secondary school days...tho i remember hating it..and wishing it would end faster...

baby...wish you were here...