hey guys it is 320 now. and i have some thoughts i realli want to blog out. was actually lying on my bed le..but suddenly realli have the urge to put my thoughts into words so here i am!

just had my gek presentation today. felt it was abit screwed up...dno y my grp was so "attacked" with qns compared to other groups. i think it was partly cos errol was closer to the tcher so our tcher felt more comfortable shooting us.

anyway tt was not my point. my point is, i was realli kinda impressed by errol's performance. meaning his presentation and his answering skills. or should i say confidence in speaking.,and at the same time..logical answers? not just confidence and bs talking...lols...

so ya..was just thinking how i realli couldn't do the same as him..while standing beside him hearing him answer all the qns targeted at our grp. like i just dun have the right answers...or dun have the confidence...or i just realli dun believe in myself..one of these 3 reasons i guess...

seriously.

tt day when we had a meeting. he wrote a script for me...in the way he would have presented, and want me to read it out loud to him.

i was all like "huh...can dun read to u not..so weird...u hearing me talk.." while i was saying this, i was acutely aware that i am being loserish, being scared to speak up.

but he was all nice and supportive and like "why not? it is onli me?seriously, you can one. " and like "u will have to speak to everyone on the day anyway"

and that realli brought me out of my shell.

like "ya..he dun feel it is weird. den y should i?"

so ya...i just speak like the way i know i could but never dare to...in front of him...

and den he was like "that was realli good. din know u can speak lidat" blabla supportive compliments which boost my confidence alot more den he probably would noe.

so ya ...wat i m trying to say is...

i think i m realli someone who needs lots of support and compliments and lots of nudging and pushings to get past my fears. if i noe someone is realli there thinking i can...thinking wat i m doing is good..is alright...i think that is the assurance i realli need..

maybe one day when i come to a point where i could build enough courage in me..have enough faith in myself..i wouldn't need such support anymore..i could stand on my own.

but that is definitely not now. though tt is wat i want to.

so ya.

just wanna say this incident realli reminds me once again that "it never hurts to compliment someone if u genuinely think he/she done well. really. it hurts no one to give a little praise from time to time. u never noe how much it means to someone. "

even if you know the person is realli up there. or so confident that he/she dun need assurance. just tell them. it would definitely still made their day/make them happy. who knows, maybe because everyone assumed these confident ppl knew they are good enough and dun need praises, it is them who received the least of all. and would realli realli appreciate it when someone praise them.

ok think my post is getting too naggy.

so on the bus ride home. i suddenly felt...like i shld msg errol to let him know how well he did today. cos i bet no one(or few) ever told him that. everyone just assumes he knows. or he dun needs it. so ya...i sms him to told him i appreciated his hard work andthnk he did great at presentation. i feel good praising someone genuinely..and i believed he feels good being praised too!

so yes..spread the love!

p/s:so it is like. maybe because of the way i come across..few thinks i need support to move on. to do well. but the fact is. i realli am insecure and easily affected by bad comments. so ya.

IT NEVER HURTS TO COMPLIMENT(me)! time to time???