one of those deep nights...
hopefully this song touched souls on this lonely late night...




Having a headache from too much crying...



haha since i cant post this on my fb...being too attention grabbing...like always...HAHAHA... i shall post to my heart's content here!=)


this is today after a runnnnn.....i ran for 30 mins~! think i ran 9/10 rounds...really horrible having not run for some time. I seriously have to do mind-over-mental brainwashing every minute, trying to distract myself from my breathing, growing pain in chest and stitch, but so proud to complete it in the end!


ate popeyes mashed potato at AMK. =) If u guys are interested in getting clear contact lens, i think i can safely say I have the best deal. i can get 13 month supply of monthly contacts at $120. =) though i dun use clear contacts anymore. haha. got it for my bro today at AMK =)





this is the day i went to jr fren hse for potluck...was bored so took some pic!! must take more pics so old liao can look back


hopes that day dun come soo soon!=(




great lighting! seem like dr g is working not bad! btw these photos are totally without makeup!~

cheers to great skin!



Happy day out.. Watch johnny English and contagion haha... I like both actually.. Tink johnny English more haha... Feels a little deflated somehow... Hope this feeling goes away soon......



ok today i m going to rant...

i am sick of people telling me "tell me if you need help kay" or "don't worry...just know that i am only a call away kay..."...or stuffs like that...you get my point...

it is okay when someone really close tells u that and actually genuinely means it...willing to take that extra mile to help you..even if it means troubling himself/herself... i really feels very happy at any effort anyone did that means trouble to them...just trying or willing to help me...no matter how small it is...

because not taking anything for granted...makes you appreciate the things people around you do for you more...=) nobody owes you a living...so appreciate any tiny bit of kindness anyone showered you...it is not given...it is a act of love to you..

it only sucks when people say those nice stuff...but what they really meant is "i just wanna feel angelic and holy by portraying myself as a helpful person...but really...please don't come and bother me...i really cant help you...at all"

if you ain't thinking you can help...dun even say it...

it just doubles up the fakeness...

but i know not everyone is like that la...only two person i have in contact with at separate occasions recently are like this... it is not like i don't already know this already...that "help" is not something many can and will offer...partly because it is not within their means...partly cos it cause them unnecessary trouble that they are unwilling to getinvolved with...but the point is.... dun even say it! when u dun intend to help. it just wastes my time...and your time as well...

and the worst thing is...these people don't even know they fall into this category! haha.. they will still continue to think themselves as angels...cos they said those holy words lol.. arghhhh..

...i dun usually bother to bother people with any of my problems...of any kind...cos i dun think it would makes things any bit better...

talking about the problem is not my kind of helping...i dun feel helped when i share my problem...i just feel i just created more gossip for that person to share with his/her other friends...

one example of what happen:

A: Dun worry kay...I am sure everything will be fine... If u need any help, just now tt i am just a call away... dun hesitate to ask for my help =)

me:okay =)

few days later....when i need help that is totally within the person means and ability...and not in anyway overboard..

me: hey...can you.....blablabla???

A: hmmm i m kinda busy these days actually....

den goes on to probe more about the problem...without actually meaning to help...ask more ask more....show more concern...says more angelic words...(just want to looks helpful
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den in the end...says..."OHHHH.....okok....i know it is really tough for you.....i understand....be strong kay....keep me updated on the "problem" kk...=)))

"LET ME KNOW IF I CAN HELP IN ANY OTHER WAYS"

me: okay..=)

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i give up...-.- ... hahaha.. u get my point? they end off feeling angelic again..feeling like they helped...but actually din...

so that explains my fb status some time ago..."if you find a friend that genuinely cares about you...hold on tight...cos not many will"

i am really glad to have my support net of friends and family..friends i know i can depend on in desperate times...


ok end of rant..

p.s: ahhhh i need to finish my tutorials!!!



Don't throw me anymore sadness. i might not be able to take anymore.



i dunwan to live in the TGIF mode in the future...i wan to actually enjoy wat i m doing...wat should i do??????????????